People,

You know what's annoying as hell? Being limited in your activities by the limitations of your body. To me there's nothing worse than the feeling of knowing what you want to do, envisioning it in your head and then, in my case, because your physical self is a shambles of humanity, you just can't get it done.

This happens to me most when I'm trying to record music. Now, I'm pretty good at music in general. I play guitar reasonably well, I have a pretty good ear, ok rhythm etc. But there's a couple things I just plain suck at, the main one being singing. I mean, I can hold my own as a background harmonizer but that's only because when I'm in the background you can't hear all the wavers, constant retuning and horrifying lack of breath control. However, on a microphone you hear ALL of those things. Clearly.

Anyway, the point of all that is that last night I was working on a vocal piece on my little computer workstation. I usually don't write anything complicated for voices because of the aforementioned sucking, but last night I thought I'd give it a try. It was not pretty. After I did take after take I found myself arguing with the computer. "You know what I'm trying to do, you dick! Just fix it!" Of course the problem did not lie in the computer at all. The problem didn't even lie in my brain. I could hear the notes I wanted to sing in my head just fine, could feel the nerve impulses racing down to my throat, but my vocal cords just wouldn't cooperate.

In the end, it took me about two hours to record one minute of singing. If the Beatles had worked at that pace then Rubber Soul wouldn't be coming out until next October.

Arg.